Party/White Squirrel/Babysitting

I hosted a party this weekend -- invited 15 women for food and fellowship -- had 8 in attendance. It was nice with the 8, lots of intimate conversation, but 3 who RSVP'd "yes" forgot to come. 2 never RSVP'd, and 2 RSVP'd "no." So there you are. Once again I wrestle with how important I might be to how many people. Not very....not to be put on their calendars! I wrestle, too, with being graceful and forgiving -- "it's OK; I know you are busy and you have a lot on your mind..." -- and with being mad/feeling scorned -- and being worried about the missing folks being in danger on the road or having a family emergency or something....

There is an albino squirrel in our neighborhood. I have seen him/her 3 times (in the last 3 years) when I've been walking. I'm always amazed that this lack of camouflage has not shortened this squirrel's life.... Ghostlike, yet occasionally available for one who is searching.... I think the existence/reality/disappearance of this unusual squirrel could preach.....

Story-telling seminar tonight on campus. I was planning to go. Oldest now is going to a movie "for extra credit" (hmmmmm) so youngest may have to go with me, or I don't get to go.... It sucks to be me, upon occasion.