Parents/In-Laws

Life continues to be "entertaining" -- or at least it keeps you on your toes. Big news this week is that hubby is heading to San Fran and Lake Tahoe with his girlfriend and her 3 children for an 11-day vacation. I don't know why hubby is not vacationing with his OWN children. My parents are very angry about this on my behalf (just like I am angry on my kids' behalf) and my father fired off a letter (probably angry) to hubby's parents. So I called in-laws to warn them of the flamer that was coming. It was an enlightening conversation with them. They just know their son is happy and that makes them happy. They don't know about the girlfriend (and they don't want to know), and they reminded me that hubby took his OWN kids to California in April (for 4 days while they were on school break, so oldest could look at colleges out there). 4 days vs. 11 days -- your 2 kids vs. someone else's 3 kids. I dunno. The math doesn't seem equitable.

I didn't ask my father to get involved at all -- I don't know what he's doing -- protecting me? forcing a reconciliation? trying to hurt the man who's hurt me? Probably a little of all of that. I haven't even talked to my father. My mother is the one who enlightened me. It'll be an interesting next few days, I'm sure. Therapy is helping me deal with the reality, but I'm still angry and yes, hurt.

Meanwhile, my broken camera (by a church kid) continues to be an issue; the kid's parents are reluctant to take responsibility. I guess this repair will just be a charge that I "eat" myself. Ugly emails between Christians -- who'd-a-thunk-it? Oh, well. Maybe my jet lag from my travels and this unbearable heat are both getting to me. I need to make some plans to lighten up and/or do something wild and crazy.

I feel (yet again) that I am ultimately alone in this world, responsible for myself, and a priority to no one (maybe to my youngest, and even that, for only a mere few years more). I don't know if bliss is anywhere along the path before me any longer, if it ever was. So complacency with my lot in life, with whatever changes I can effect, seems to be the challenge before me now.