Friday night

Oldest in shower -- home from game and dropping off "trash" for school flea market/fund-raiser tomorrow. Youngest watching TV and eating donuts. Hubby still in MS -- scheduled to be home October 13th. I am finished with my 2nd full week of school -- good friend preached in chapel this morning -- wonderful! He forgot to take his sermon notes into the pulpit with him (and it's a bit of a climb....) so asked the choir director to get them for him. So funny, so human, so genuine!

I asked a question/made a point in pastoral counseling class this week (The Minister As Counselor) and got kudos from nearly everyone, even prof. New level of respect -- but glad to know all I think I know is still there (I mean, M.A. in clinical psych -- I should know some of this stuff, yes?). And then in Greek exegesis this morning I knew what haplography was -- raised my hand and told the class -- friend next to me (the one who I tend to smother!) was duly impressed. It's not about impressing people, really, but it is about a little acknowledgement and a feeling that I fit in. Often, I feel "dull" (not necessarily dumb or stupid) next to these bright kids who are 20 years my junior. Sometimes it feels like my synapses are firing just as quickly as theirs are, as mine ever used to, but sometimes I don't feel as sharp or on the ball as I used to.... Welcome to middle age, right? (I'm 44; I don't want to die at 88!)

Really want to do good (quality & quantity) school work and thesis/book work this weekend. Also hope to see an ordination.... AND I have a student government "retreat" to attend (ugh!). Need to manage child care for youngest one and driving for the oldest one. And have 2 sympathy cards and 1 new house card to get into the mail.... No shortage of #*@! to do, story of my life!