overwhelmed (redux)

This is me trying to recreate a blog entry that I typed last night about 7-ish, then when I went to post it, blogger.com had the message that the system was down for scheduled maintenance from 4 (Pacific Standard Time) to 4:15, so I lost several paragraphs. (Who was notified of this schedule?) Those kind of things have me wondering about my place in the world -- who is out to get me, and so forth. Ah, well. Putting my paranoia and all-about-me-ness aside, here's hoping that today's iteration is at least as telling (and maybe better edited) than last night's....

OK, so overwhelmed one week (on Weds.) into classes! Caused me to muse about whatever comedian noted that we never speak about being merely "whelmed." Coping is difficult now with my 16 credits, my single-parenting (husband still in the gulf on Hurricane Katrina-soon-to-be-Rita duty), and my extra curricular activites -- the want-to-do's in addition to the have-to-do's.

I am moderator for Seminarians Affirming Reproductive Choice, so attended a student government meeting (my first!) yesterday. Need to provide membership lists and budget requests (today), and just get myself organized in general (ongoing). I also swam 60 laps yesterday in the seminary pool, in 60 mins. -- good for me but also kind of my standard pace, so then I can stop counting and just watch the clock -- hope to do that twice weekly for a little fitness. I can feel it in my arm muscles today. Missed seeing Elie Wiesel last night at the University -- my oldest needed rides from after-school sporting event to evening meeting -- youngest had a play date -- can't do everything. Also missed bell choir organizational meeting. Did get my New Testament "Appetizer" (one-page exegesis) to my prof this morning; also worked on my thesis proposal for my advisor -- but he postponed this morning's meeting. Should I take it as a slap in the face or be grateful for the extra time? The conundrums I live with daily!

My mother may have been right that I am not nice enough to be a pastor (I have always thought so, too, hence my 20-year delay in going to seminary!). I recently heard of a former classmate's ordination this past weekend. Not sure if I was wishing this former seminarian evil when I heard, because this person always seemed like a cold and less-than-deserving fish to me, or if I was just jealous. Maybe the church and this person will be a good fit, and will bolster the other and help the other grow. Here's hoping (that's me being charitable). On another note, a good friend will be ordained next week, and I am excited to attend. This person I find to be truly called, and I hope the calling church is more truly inspired than desperate (they have been without a pastor for 5 years!) -- they are in for a very pleasant surprise!

Lost my train of thought. Long enough anyway and off to class in 10 mins. Thanks for reading along thus far. Good enough will have to be good enough for now.